Your Day Follows Your Word

I’m finally tuning in to the space around me. I’m more aware of each present moment that comes. My past is dissolving as I keep growing. I was having a conversation at work the other day and I replied, “You have to let go, to grow.” You know when I write these, I want to be very transparent, they are not only for you, but they are for me as well. I read the other day that the advice you give to others is the same advice you are needing to hear. When I am writing, I am telling myself as well that anxiety, depression, worry, and fear are feelings that I feel as well. However, in order to face all of these detrimental feelings, you have to embrace them, ask yourself why you are feeling them, and let them go. None of the feelings above are of service to you. They service us in creating bad habits so we don’t feel them. Those bad habits are alcohol, drugs, prescription drugs, eating, sleeping, being sick all the time. I relied on alcohol and prescription drugs for many a year. I used to drink so I couldn’t feel, however, I could definitely feel it the next day! Then it just made things worse. I am not saying drinking is bad, but I do feel I have finally come to the conclusion I don’t have to drink myself to not wanting to feel life. I want to feel it now!

I just signed up for a mentorship after an application call, I had to think about it for about a whole five minutes, but I knew that this mentorship is going to better me in so many ways, I was crazy not too! Yes, contracts cost money, but if you know deep down it is going to serve you in ways you never thought possible, you do it. You surround yourself with like minded people to move forward in life. Positive people. I can no longer do negative. I just can’t. I can converse with negative, but I don’t hang out with it. I was a very negative person for a very long time and it got me no where. I would drink because I knew if I drank, I would be fun….sometimes. I would let everything go. I didn’t care what people thought of me, I didn’t care if I had a rough day at work, or my relationships weren’t working. I just didn’t care.

I recently had a patient’s family member yell at me right when I got to work. I mean right at shift change. My heart rate elevated, it was my third shift in row, but I took it. It wasn’t about me. However, I am glad it was me that took it because I knew I could let it go. My peers who left after the situation unfolded, and who were with me that day, were meant to be there with me. We made it through the day knowing we are there for each other, it didn’t need to be said. That’s what nursing is all about! We gave in to the profession because we knew we wanted to care for humanity, but we also knew in the back of our minds, we would be around like minded people. Like creates like.

As, I was running errands today. I was at the check out stand and the clerk asked me, “How is your day going?” I am transitioning into saying, “Awesome!” instead of just, “good.” Why? Because by saying AWESOME, you raise your frequency not only for yourself, but others around you. Guess what she said…..”Awesome as well!” Here is the kicker……she also said, “Your day follows your word.” I rushed out to my car and texted that to myself because I resonated with it so much. I wonder if I had tuned in sooner with my life, what more I could have been learning. Guess what? I threw out that thought and I then thought, “You are going to learn so much starting now.” It’s never too late.