The Ugly Truth

I watched this movie the other day out of not wanting to watch anything new or have to think. Not a great movie, however, as I was watching it, insightful messages were brought to my attention. Both parties in this movie are not being their true self. We are always trying to impress or be on our “best behavior,” when we meet someone new. We don’t want to scare people off with our internal shit. The reason you have internal shit is because you never express it to people who can help you because you are too proud or scared. I am pointing my finger at me right now because this was me, but if you resonate with this, you can point your finger to yourself. If you keep suppressing, you are on the path to depressing, and the more you do this, the harder it is to come out from the darkness and start seeing the light, which is what you are are always supposed to see. As kids, all we used to see was light. It’s not in our genes on how we behave, it’s the external environment we grow up in. When we are young, we don’t know anything different, we are constantly learning, mimicking, internalizing and then practicing what we process. What kind of energies, vibes, frequencies, or whatever you want to call them, are you putting out there? Might want to keep this in the back of your mind as you start every day.

Starting your day. How do you wake up? If you wake up and are instantly negative, guess how your day is going to play out? I urge you to try both ways, the good and the bad and see where your day gets you. You are the one in the control seat at all times. For every situation that is thrown your way, there are different ways you can handle it! Situations are put here for us to help us learn. They may be for us to learn that this isn’t the path we want to take, so we need to try a different path. Or they are there for us to learn and grow from. For every problem, there is a solution. The major hold up for me in this area, are relationships. We hold on to a significant other for so long because we always have in the back of our mind, “it’s going to get better.” Is it? If people are not willing to change for the greater good, that is not on you if you are growing positively. You have surpassed their energy and you are totally functioning on a different frequency. Now, this only pertains to people who are seeing and seeking life to the fullest. If you are feeling held back, it’s probably because you are! Now, instead of talking shit about the person you were with for so long, really dive into what you learned. Stop blaming others and start looking at it has a valuable lesson.

Take those lessons, learn from them, and know what you don’t want and ultimately, do not settle! Settling is lack of confidence on your part. Settling makes you want something more, looking for someone or something else. I am here to tell you, I have settled. However, the past settling relationships, I embraced them, and they made me who I am today. I am so grateful for the past, because now, I am ready for the person who is matching my energy, my frequency. Someone who sees me as a light in their life, someone who wants to share their thoughts, fears, desires. A partnership is meant for two people to learn from each other in a positive manner and consistently make each other a better person. I may have done this with my past relationships a little bit, but it wasn’t enough for me or we weren’t the right fit and that is okay.

Here is the ugly truth. Why are we constantly treating chronic diseases such has heart, lung, diabetes, etc., and not treating the most important one, mental illness. It is chronic, isn’t it? We have all suffered from it, some of us still are. Why are people so damn scared to own up to this chronic disease? Because you are afraid of what people are going to think of you? Actually you would be helping, most importantly yourself, and others if you communicated the internal suffering. Why do you think I started this blog? Was it meant to help others? Yes, however, it has more for me because I get to write about it and get my internal mental disease out on the table. Is it scary? At first, but then you get to a point where you don’t care what others think. Because deep down inside, you are now becoming a light, that has never shined so bright, as it does now.