Your Choice

I haven’t written for awhile due to me just not wanting too. I have the choice to do so. However, I am more at peace when I do write because it clears the mind and it is good for the heart. I read the other day, “the bigger the mistake you make, the more you learn from it and the further you will grow.” Julia Cannon I agree and disagree with this quote. I feel these days they are not mistakes, they are experiences that are not ideal. And, yes if you keep repeating non ideal experiences, they are just going to keep being thrown at you until you turn it around and LEARN from them and see why you keep creating them. I created a not so desirable situation the other day and did I learn a lot of myself. I reverted back to old habits. Old habits die hard, you know. But this one, I thought I had it kicked. Some text messages and conversations kicked off the whole process. It was starting, the same conversations I had many times with certain people and I got angry which altered my thinking process because I wasn’t getting the attention I have so desired from this particular circle. Why do people seek attention? Because they are not getting it from the ones they seek it from. Stop seeking.

What do you do to break this habit? Honestly, it has taken me six years of counseling and the seeking approval is still my crutch. I break this habit with continued intentional and positive thoughts. I tell myself I am good enough, and I surround myself with people who are cheering me on for the long haul. Why get so caught up with those that don’t? People pleaser. You guessed it. I think deep down inside of every one of us, we want to please, we want approval, we want to be loved for who we are. Side note: Not everyone is going to like you just because they are unable to open their capabilities to the fullest. They have limits. You do not. You are limitless, you think outside of the box, you seek good intentions, you just do. You have too or you are going to have a very long road ahead of you. Those people are road blocks. They hinder your destination, but you have to look at it as a lesson learned and seek higher ground or a smoother road. You appreciate them, embrace them, and let them go and be hopeful, they seek what you have found. You learn what not to do and I did that this last experience. Do all you can do, you cannot fix, you can only guide and be a positive trend setter.

I also read the other day, ” What if we didn’t have mirrors or see our reflection?” We would mainly go off of what people said to us or feel their energy around us. If they gave you a compliment, you would have to believe them unless is was below your head and you could see it totally wasn’t true. But people who constantly give you compliments, it’s because they truly love you and they see something you don’t. Believe them even if you look in the mirror and you don’t like the reflection, that is on you, not them. Be true to your word and actions. Actions do speak louder than words and I broke that this last week, but I am going to chalk it up as a learning experience and do better. All I can do, right? No one is perfect, but you have the ability to keep going in the right direction even if there is a road block from time to time. You figure it out and find someone that is willing to take those mind blocks down with you. That is your tribe, your soulmate, your mirror that you want to have in front of you. Choose wisely.