Not This, This Instead

So, I typed this out and texted it to myself not too long ago. I don’t know if I read it somewhere, which I need to be doing more instead of worrying about how my book is going to do, or “am I doing enough?” “Am I making the most out of my day?” These are anxiety feelings. Now, I just had a session with a client, and when I coped with anxiety feelings back in the day, I had plenty of prescriptions to choose from and sleep it off. This was my escape from facing the day. Instead of changing thoughts, I would shut down. So, what do I do now? Well, due to nervous system trauma, my body tells my mind to go sleep it off. But I have to fight that urge. I ask myself, “What could make my day better?” Well, I could read, work out, or work on more goals. Or…… here I am writing about it because I am fighting the urge to drive back to the house and go to sleep.

“Face the day!” is what people and positive affirmations tell us. How about, “Create the day!” Your thought and beliefs create your day. If a negative experience happens, you can either stick there all damn day or create a positive one. No one determines your day except for you. Read that again. People influence your day whether it is your significant other, your friends, your boss, or your peers. You are the ultimate decision maker if you are going to let it get you down or lift you up. People are not out to get you; you just think they are. If someone interrupts your day negatively, shine the brightest light on them, and move on. Easier said than done. But this is how you train your nervous system reactions to a different route and condition them differently.

So, my e book is published. Yay me! The feeling was good for a while, it’s new, it feels good. But then the last couple days, I started questioning myself, “it is going to be good enough?” “Are people going to like it,” “Will it be successful?” It’s been 3 days and here I am, putting myself down. Good grief, what were we conditioned as humans? So, I picked up another book and started reading it, and it has the same positivity and outlook like I have, but then it went south. Like the author consumed herself into the news, she made it political, and I was disappointed. How does a bestselling author go from telling their story to believing the news and making it political? I used to do it. But then I told myself, I will not believe what the news or social media is telling me because I am not there to experience it. How do you know if it is true? You are not there. I know I have talked about this before over and over again. Getting back to my point. It was a great book I was reading until she had outside people influencing her and telling her how to feel. She didn’t question it, just went with it.

So, the jest of the last paragraph, is I want you to question yourself. And here is the question,” Is this true?” “Is this going to affect my day?” Take it one step further, if you think it is real, find the source. Go to the location and interview people. The news is full of green screens. Don’t let other people influence your day. Make it, “Not This, This Instead.” Create your own blank canvas screen each day. Instead of the green screen.