Keep Beating

You can look at this title two different ways: You can keep beating which essentially means keep going or you can keep getting beat. Where there is that one person who knows how to get under your skin and they affect you in such a way, you become numb and angry. They ruin your day and you let them because you need to feel sad. You need to feel it because if you keep putting it off, the feeling never goes away. So, this is what I did yesterday. I wanted to feel the loneliness, the grief because I know now how to handle this person and the way I am going to handle it, is letting go. I am going to keep beating on, being successful, showing myself, I can get through this one person who weighs me down and they don’t even know it! If they do, that’s on them, not on me anymore. And if they do know they are doing this intentionally, they have a lot of self-work to do. They are mentally challenged. Their brain is robotic. Mentally challenged people cannot look outside the box and be empathetic. They say they are empathetic, but they are not. They think they are, but they live in a warped world. A world they cannot escape because these beliefs have been embedded in them. You are truly awake when you can actually feel the energies of people around you.

If you cannot read/feel in a room of people, you need to work on yourself because you may not even know how to sort out of your own feelings. We as humans, are supposed to feel each other’s energies. This is the awakened state. If you are not there yet, that’s ok. The only way to reach it is letting go of the people who no longer serve you, looking at the positive side of experiences, and becoming truly happy. Your happiness comes from within YOU, no one else. If a person or persons make you sad, this is on you. You have to let them go, even if they are supposed to be programmed to love you. You may choose your first family before you are born, but you get to choose your second. How exciting is that? You get to fill up your cup with people who want to be around you. You can always tip the cup to let a little water out when it gets too full. You don’t need a lot of people. Just a few. Less is more.

I am going to keep beating on. I am hurt, but I would be hurt more if I don’t set boundaries. People who are not celebrating my work, my success, my happiness will be poured out. And what happens with water when the sun hits it? It evaporates. Once you evaporate, you are gone. I wish you well and I hope the sun catches you and heals you. I tried my best and if I know I tried my best, there is nothing else to give. Thank you for teaching me what not to do. I appreciate that gift you gave me.