Marketing

I have been reading a lot today. And the book I am reading is “Anatomy of the Spirit,” by Caroline Myss. She wrote a sentence that stood out to me and then my brain was instantly telling me I needed to write about this. Healing is getting over your pain, not “marketing,” it. This threw me back. If you are constantly communicating your wounds, pain, depression, anxiety, you are simply marketing it. Which I think you are justifying it. You are telling the world or yourself you have this either to gain sympathy, telling yourself it’s ok to be a chronic, or you simply don’t like yourself. This post may hit you hard and you are thinking, what do I know? What don’t you know? I am learning and reading alternative ways of healing instead of pill therapy. I am being enlightened over here. I am choosing peace over negativity. I am choosing solitude.

Something came up last night and it keeps coming up. I don’t market this emotional roller coaster, I keep it in, which also in turn, makes me treat others close to me, poorly. Why I haven’t really been good at sales! Just kidding. The reason I keep it in is because I am embarrassed, and I feel like I should have moved on from a situation a couple months ago. The situation being me separating myself from generational DNA. I know it is for my benefit and my peace, but at times, I second guess myself. I have been having vivid dreams and I have been doubtful which in turn creates grief for me. I need to notice my behavior and when I feel irritated, I need to isolate myself, and really dive deep and find what the root cause is. This is where relationships falter. You may think it is surface talk or someone’s actions are annoying. But why is it annoying? Why does the same situation keep coming up? It’s because you haven’t been really true to yourself on what is really going on! You are holding in feelings you think should be tucked away. This is why therapy is important by the way.

However, I am already in therapy. My problem is I feel like I am burdening someone with my feelings of inadequacy. They have been taking care of other people’s problems for so long that I feel like a burden which is not the case if someone really loves you. They want to help you. The problem is your ego and becoming vulnerable. So yes, some of us market the pain, the headaches, the back pain, the anxiety, the depression. Some of us stay silent. Which one are you? Both are detrimental to your spirit evolving. You were not born with self-love my friends, my readers. This journey is about learning how.