Dear Anxiety

Dear Anxiety,

Thank you so much for hindering me when you did at a young age. I wouldn’t have been good at athletics, school, and essentially life. Thank you for scaring me if I wronged my parents, it made me become more empathic. Anxiety, thank you for getting me into and through nursing school, I tried suppressing you with alcohol, it didn’t work. I am grateful, anxiety, that I went through prescription after prescription to know THAT COMMUNICATION is more effective. Thank you for leading me to my counselor. Hey Anxiety, thank you for all of the relationships that didn’t work to lead me to one that worked, especially the one for myself.

Thank you for making me anxious at my job so I worked hard. Thank you for making me care what people thought, I no longer care what people think of me because you taught me to care for too long. I especially want to say thanks for my insomnia. You taught me my self-defeating thoughts are not worth losing sleep over. Thank you, anxiety, for forcing me in this relationship to fix my wounds you covered up for so long, I am now able to uncover and fix. I appreciate you telling me I can’t so much to the point if I tried a little bit, I know that I CAN. Thank you for letting me think I deserved negativity in my life, because once I got a taste of positivity, you started leaving. Please never leave me all the way because you have made me into who I am today. A survivor, an author, a nurse, mindset coach, a bonus mom, a good friend at times, a girlfriend, a good daughter, and an overall good person. Thank you, anxiety for all of the experiences you keep throwing at me. I can control you better now because you have opened a door for me. This door has the ability to shut you out and let you in when I need a push. You won’t be opened twenty-four hours a day. There will be time where I recognize you were actually fear. So, thank you fear. I will someday be more and more fearless.

Love,

Brooke