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2025 vs. Cancer Diagnosis

2025! What a year! The emotional highs and lows were palpable due to outside influence including work, news, weather, social media, and most importantly, the people you surround yourself with. I don’t know about you, but this year kicked my ass emotionally…..in a good way. I figured out who I don’t want to be, however,Continue reading “2025 vs. Cancer Diagnosis”

The Quick Fix

I don’t know where to even start with this. I have been in such a lonely/not lonely state. I go to work, and I see all these cancers, unhealthy individuals, polypharmacy, and I ask myself, “why in the hell am I contributing to this?” I had two patient’s on my floor with turbo cancers andContinue reading “The Quick Fix”

When are they going to find out?

I am going on twenty years as a nurse, and I did come down with a mild case of pneumonia and so I am sitting in my house and I am stewing. What am I stewing about, you may ask? The fact the hospital puts on a donation ball every year so they can raiseContinue reading “When are they going to find out?”

How do we do this?

I was sitting at my counselor’s office this afternoon and she asked me what I want to do in life? Over the six to seven years that I have been seeing her; I am still at a loss. My main drive is to change healthcare. I just don’t believe in it anymore. Now, yes, IContinue reading “How do we do this?”

Why do I Stay?

After my last post, I have asked myself why I stay at a job where we don’t get compensation for our moral and emotional tolls? The answer is simple. I was put here to help humankind. As, I relive the moment where my brother who I rarely communicate with anymore was the one to tellContinue reading “Why do I Stay?”

Burnout vs. Moral Injury vs. Betrayal

According to Psychology Today, “burnout is a state of emotional, mental, and often physical exhaustion brought on by prolonged or repeated stress.” I hear a lot of peers, hospital administrators saying, “They are burned out.” Then administrators, f-ing fix it. I am not talking managers; I am talking to the upper management. The cost ofContinue reading “Burnout vs. Moral Injury vs. Betrayal”

No Life Outside of the Hospital

I am finding a pattern lately. As nurses, we focus so much on our work inside the system, we lose ourselves. We find that caring for others fills our souls so much that we forget what fills our souls outside of work. We become lost. We hide away in our houses; we don’t feel likeContinue reading “No Life Outside of the Hospital”

Dear Anxiety

Dear Anxiety, Thank you so much for hindering me when you did at a young age. I wouldn’t have been good at athletics, school, and essentially life. Thank you for scaring me if I wronged my parents, it made me become more empathic. Anxiety, thank you for getting me into and through nursing school, IContinue reading “Dear Anxiety”

Definition of Happiness

What is the definition of happiness? Looking it up now…..”an agreeable feeling or condition of the soul arising from good fortune or propitious happening of any kind.” LOL, looking up propitious, “convenient, favorable, or kind. Showing signs of a favorable outcome.” I didn’t know what propitious meant. Okay, so what I am seeing here, isContinue reading “Definition of Happiness”

Anger is Fear

I talked about being angry is last week and I wanted to write about it. A text message came through on my phone and it shook me a little. I don’t know if the other person intended to come across short or snide. So, I took the easy route which in fact was the hardContinue reading “Anger is Fear”