Author Archives: forsythe14

So, in my last post, I informed you I was going to quit with pharma pills. I was going to be done with my night medications. Let me tell you how that went. Terrible. Coming off meds is one of the hardest things one must endeavor. Was I successful? Did I fail? Both. How canContinue reading “Failure or Stepping Stone?”

Just got back from a run. I had two orthopedic surgeons tell me I would never be able to run again due to my knee surgeries. What does that do to your mental health? When you have doctors keep telling you what you can’t do, but they should be focusing on what you can doContinue reading “On the Run….Again”

I feel these two feelings are intertwined. The more anxiety I have, I shut down, and I become lifeless. If I feel I have a to do list that is ongoing and I can’t even comprehend completing those multiple tasks, I used to go to bed. I would sleep all day. I would medicate myselfContinue reading “Anxiety vs. Depression”

I never in my life would imagine I would see so many deaths. I can’t even count the number of times I have watched someone take their last breath. In my nursing years, I looked at death as, ” a get out of jail free card.” You no longer have to suffer, you no longerContinue reading “Numbed Out”

I’m not going to lie here. Work has pushed me to my limits lately. I know I am not the only one who is struggling right now with work. I am not struggling with picking up extra, I am struggling with the lack of time I get with my patients. The healthcare system is notContinue reading “Friends Who Bail Me Out”

I had a patient a couple of weeks ago ask me if I was real? We are atoms, which make up matter, which, is what I learned in Physics a long time ago. Now, did I understand physics? No. Did I understand math, where you had to figure out the problem by reading pages ofContinue reading “Are you Real? Yes, I Matter”

Lots of thoughts regarding social media this morning, so I need to write it out to make myself feel at peace again. I have backed way off of social media due to discrimination, perfection, and competition. Read those last three words…… all negative. Which is what social media is, if you are posting how perfectContinue reading “What are you Contributing?”

During this transformation period that is never ending, I had a Chaplain write down a patient’s last words. I do not know what sparked this inside me, but I feel when people are turning to their new adventure, their last words are full of courage, love, and empowerment. They have gone through life and haveContinue reading “Last Words Define Your New Beginning”

I had an epiphany the other day during a couple of nurse coaching sessions. The “why me” question? Why did this happen to me? In my past experiences, I would have said, “Well, life isn’t fair.” Now, I take it as a learning experience, embrace the experience, find why I was thrown the experience, andContinue reading “Live It! Learn It! Teach It!”

Every action, every word, every thought, has made you into who you are today. Think about that. Each negative or positive thought and/or action created you. When I am taking care of people who are dying, they always look up at me and wish they can take back their past. They would have done thingsContinue reading “The Past Truly Defines You”