Livin or Living the Dream?

Livin is actually a word. Just looked it up. It is defined as, ” a way of life or a state of mind, its a refusal to fail and live like the ordinary.” I want to say live like the extraordinary. Ordinary is a little to boring these days. But the refusal to fail, now, that is extraordinary. I have asked multiple souls in the last week, “How’s it going?” “Livin the dream!” Followed by a silent sigh. Ummmm…no you are not. Due to the definition above, it does not sound like you are refusing to fail in this so called movie, called life. It sounds like you are already defeated. You might want to switch the, “livin” with the plain “living.” If you so choose. If you knew your life was just a dream; a very long one, how would you go about your day? Would you choose a different attitude, more positivity? Or, would you just become numb to everything and just go though this with the least amount of consciousness. Would your awareness heighten if you knew you get to choose your path? Is this life or dream, a nightmare? How do you get out of nightmares? You wake up!

I did not sleep well last night or the past few nights. Trying again to wean off medications. More slowly this time. I got up this morning and felt tired and told myself to go back to bed. That lasted a whole ten minutes because chores kept running through my head, need to finish up my nurse coaching program, could be reading, cleaning house, or writing a blog. I got up, washed by face with somewhat cold water, and felt instantly better. I am waking up to the dream that I want to create today. I’m writing because I refuse to live like the ordinary and share some insight to what my experience, or others experiences are. If life is a dream and I knew what I know now, oh man, possibilities are endless. I would still be a nurse, however, when I listened to patients or peers, I would lean into the conversations more. I read when people tell you something, they are telling you for a reason. Yes, some of it is just talk, but my older generation patient’s, I should have listened more. People enter your life for a reason. Every situation can be a learning experience. You are constantly learning in a conversation if you take the time to listen. Be a sponge. I think my teachers always told me that back in the day. Wring out the negative though.

Living the dream. Sigh. Sounds like you need a change. I have caught myself saying this as well. Sigh. So when people say this, I am going to ask, “Is it a good one?” I wonder what response I am going to get. I bet 95 percent will either laugh or say, “What do you think?” Well, I am asking you. It’s not about what I think, it’s your dream! My counselor has said it before, felt like she said it last week. I could be wrong. But, she would actually be positive about it. Why I have stuck around her for close to 5 years now. She woke me up from a bleak dream. Not saying my whole life was a empty or cold, but she woke me up from just living the dream. I’m Livin IT NOW. If I would have not met her, I wouldn’t be here today. My counselor and I really don’t talk about the past anymore, I have let it go. I am no longer at that point in my life. I am now looking at the present and fine tuning my decisions that may impact my future, creating my dream. I don’t want to live in the past anymore, it’s a constant road block. When you think about your past, what feelings does it bring up? We tune into all the negativity, it is how we are programmed. What would our lives look like if we just let it all go? Let go of the people that no longer serve us. The person that didn’t serve you, you probably didn’t serve as well. It’s why people move on. They feel better without you and you feel better without them. Disconnect.

Connect with yourself. Intuition. Do what makes you happy. You are the only one that chooses happiness. You can choose how to control a situation. Try to make a it a good outcome. It serves more. Dream your dream. Be livin the dream!