Instinct vs. Reaction

This keeps coming up for me lately. Partly because I’m a little confused with life right now. Things are happening that I never though they would have. Some of them really good, some of them not so great. Life vs. Work. As humans, we are taught to the core you have to work so hard in order to get anywhere in life. Life should not be like this. You should enjoy your work in order to like your life. Being in the medical profession right now is one of the hardest things, one is going through right now. We are truly over worked. I look around and everyone has exhaustion written all over them. Never in my 16 years, have I seen this. We have been wearing masks for over 2 years now, and for what reason? Still, don’t have the science behind this. Does this make you wonder who you should trust? Start questioning things, do the research.

So, if we are over worked, it plays into our lives we are living. We overreact to words, messages, and actions. We instantly go to the negative which is what I have been doing lately. Instead of taking a deep breath and really looking inside to what reaction I should be giving, which should be looking for the best intention. When I get down, I instantly go to the negative. Old habits die hard they say. Why I am constantly working on myself to let old habits go, because they truly ruin relationships. Your mental health determines your physical health. I just finished talking to one of my former peers at work and she was on medication for her stomach for awhile because she internally wasn’t happy in her relationship. She broke off the relationship and instantly felt better and was off the meds. What is holding you to something that is not working? If your mental health is struggling which in turn creates your physical being and you are not happy, why are you still in it? Scared of letting go? I’m staying due to the kids? Kids are sponges, they feel your energy, which in turn, they know you are not happy. This is where the struggle begins and you have to weigh the pro and cons of your own happiness in order to reflect it to those closest to you.

It’s ok to end a relationship in order for yourself to be happy. Be selfish in this way. I need to end my relationship with my gut instinct when I read or feel something and take it way out of context. I’m only human right? No, I need to be better because I know I can. I didn’t go through five years of counseling and learning about myself to just settle on my bad habits. You can always improve your communication, not only with yourself, but for others. It’s always a work in progress. I want to be the best for someone, because they deserve the best. It is a two way street here. They have to do the same. If they are not making you a better person, time to move on. They should be freeing you of your past and making you feel confident, loved, and respected. If you find this person, hold on to them. They are meant for you. If you haven’t found this in someone, you might need to work on yourself first. Timing is everything. I am thirty nine and I feel I am right where I need to be for once in my life. I am trusting life, I am trusting that good things have come and are coming my way. Trust your instincts, but be careful of your reactions. For wrong reactions take a toll on your thoughts, your feelings, and you start questioning things.

When you have a strong reaction, really look at why you are feeling this way. What is the situation at that moment you are in? If you in a stressful situation when you receive something you don’t want to read or experience. Wait until you come out of that stressful situation and go back when you are at ease or peace because 9 out of 10 times, it will read different and it didn’t deserve the negative reaction. Be patient with yourself, seek good intentions, and most importantly, be the positive change to influence others.