2022!

Well, it has been a hot moment since I have written my thoughts down! 2022 What a year. My 2022 started with a break up. It was a mutual decision and we were going down separate paths. Do I regret it? Not a bit. In life, you meet people who are on your same frequency and they are there to guide you through what you need to go through. May take a couple months and it may take years. You need to have the attitude at the end of these relationships as if they were stepping stones into who you really want to be. You have to shed the light on them even if they created a lot of darkness. With relationships, you come out a different person whether you believe it or not. As I have said multiple times before, they are there to teach you, what you do want and what you don’t want.

So, after the break up I was back on the dating scene which didn’t last too long. I told myself I was going to stay single for the summer, get my bearings straight and focus on me. Come to find out my next relationship started a little past half of May. When I met this individual, it was a breath a fresh air. He was sociable, positive, and was full of life in a different way than my past relationships. I was able to understand him, relate, and it was a higher energy frequency that he was exhibiting. It was what I was craving. Funny thing was, I knew he had two kids from his profile. Yes! I did the online dating thing! Let me just say something, “never say never.” I told myself from the very beginning I would never date someone who had kids. I didn’t want them, I just didn’t yearn the desire to be a parent. But something felt different about this guy. His zest for life and positivity reigned me in. Now, was it all butterflies and rainbows in the beginning. Ummmm..no. Everyone told me there is a honeymoon phase. Those are the relationships that don’t work out because you are not being true to yourself and visa versa.

The dark sides on past relationships came out. What we feared from the past came to the surface. It happened quick, and the reason why? We were both scared that this relationship might actually be real. We were protecting ourselves from past experiences because we didn’t want to get hurt again. How do you get through it? You work on it, you become vulnerable in all the ways. You sit and you communicate why you are scared. The reason couples fight is not actually about the current fight, it is what we are scared of or there is a deeper meaning we are not wanting to face because it hurts us to really talk about it. So, as a true believer in mental health, counseling was initiated. Hell, after six years of my own counseling, I have no problem in bringing up what truly everyone needs.

March is mental health awareness week you know! We all individually need and must work on ourselves to pursue healthy relationships. If we don’t better ourselves, you are at a road block. Game over. There is nothing wrong in seeking guidance whether it is for your self journey or the sake of a relationship. If people frown upon mental health needs, they are the ones who need it the most because they know they have a lot to work on and letting it out would be one long hell of a ride. Guess what, you have to start somewhere. Money should not matter to those who seek self help. It is an investment and a long term commitment. You become rich in the end. Trust me.

So back to 2022, I sold my house that I so loved. The reason being is I lost the love of my life, Roxy (dog), this fall. The only soul who has been close to my side, sleeping by me for the last fourteen years. She saw all of my highs and lows and I thought I was going to lose her when I was so negative. She felt the negativity and it declined her however, three years ago now when I started to change mindset, she started getting better. When you start changing your mindset about life, the energy shifts. So, I did have her a couple more years that I thought I would have. Truly blessed. The day I knew I had to let go was when her back legs gave out for moments at a time. She looked at me and I could tell she was ready. She knew I was happy again and I was moving forward. She knew she helped me to where I was going. Her mission was accomplished. So grateful for her.

So, I sold my house and moved in with my soulmate. I started my own coaching business and as I sit here and write, I am creating visions on what my future holds. This path I have taken was set by me long ago and I didn’t even realize it. Maybe, I truly wanted to be integrated into a relationship with kids because I feel I can offer a positive mindset in this crazy world. I can let go of what is going on in the outside world and focus on being present. Being the realist I am, I have shut off news for the past two weeks. If you can truly create your future why are you looking at social outlets to deter you? Life throws curveballs at you, you better be ready to receive them and swing at them. The question is, which direction are you hitting them? Are you missing them or are you connecting and processing the meaning? 2022, what a great year!